then we sat into a mcdonald's to warm up and stuff our empty stomaches. it was gorgeous! after standing hours in cold, feeling the icy wind in my face, to be surrounded by people I don't know, sincerely. I felt strange but not the way I do in school situations. yeah, I try to integrate again. to be like I was.
in those moments I felt great. it is strange, though, that I just think that. I felt that. nobody could tell my why is it.. it is just in me.
i don't fucking know what to do.
what should I do? listen to my crazy heart and hit my face again...
or believe my brain, who is always thinking?
I don't like risks.
and the week begins again.
a holy crap, to be one of the lost people, to lose myself again.
omg, I just wanna save myself.
yes, I am selfish. but it helps sometimes.