I have a fucked up desire in myself. I always ask myself questions, what is it and why it can't be deleted? Everything would be than so much easier. I realized that I have a kink in myself. Something that cannot be only repealed. That something has a snug in my mind, which is entrenched, and not able to move. This is a funny feeling. I need someone to make me free and let my mind to fly and leave this desperate and ridiculous status.